Do you know why im using that title?
I guess, NOT.
Okay, i'll tell y'all about my sadness. i have a problem. IT SUCKS! It's about my friend's big mouth. I actually dont want to make him as my friend. He's too wicked in my eyes. He's talking to his friends about MY BAD behind me! It really hurted myself! WTH! i dunno how to solve it! i've already said sorry to him if ive any fault/ mistake to him. but, ive already realized if he doesnt like me. or we can say, if he hates me.
I honestly dont want to have any enemy, whatever it takes! but, he started first. He hurted me step by step with his words. FUCK! but, i dunno why, i cant hate him back!
I just wrote these notes while ive felt hurted of his fuckin' words:
"Fuck, Shit, Asshole, Damn, WTH, WTF!I honestly want to say these bad words in front of your face!!!But, why i cant?!I feel if there's always an angel besides me to stop my bad words!"
"What a damn day!Now, im so lazy to talk to anyone here. They're ANNOYING. I hate people when they just want to talk to me if they need my help or if they just want to borrow my stuffs like: tissue, bolpoint, pencil, ruler, eraser, and many more. They're always talking about me behind me! It Sucks! Fuck!I actually dont hate people whom always talk about me behind me. But, i just feel a lil bit hurt of their bad habits. They talked about me on my back! they dont talk to me in front of my face!I just want them to talk to me in front of my face without bring anyone to know the problem. A lot of people here arent friendly as i think.I dont like to stay here for the longer time. Why? because there's someone who hates me the most. I know who he is. I honestly want to give my middle finger to him. Oh badly, i cant! i just remember GOD's wonderful words to love enemies. That's why i cant do that."
"I honestly want to hit and kick you till you die. But, i have to forgive you. It's hard to me! But, i have to do that. GOD, help me please."
"you hurted me by ur f*ck words. I wouldnt hurt you. Because GOD told me to love enemies."
"Seems like i want to give my middle finger to you."Those notes based deep down from my heart. I really felt hurted of their bad words to me. Sometimes, im sad if i have to remember their bad words on my mind. i dunno why i cant forget their bad words. PRAYER is the only key that i can do EVERYDAY if im sad. I cant hate people whom hate me. Because i dont want to make any sin. Im a follower of Jesus. im happy to have Jesus in my life. Why? because HE is my BIGGEST supporter in my life. i dont care if people want to hate me or not, but the only thing that you've to remember is JESUS never leave me alone, because HE LOVES ME, HIS CHILD :) ♥
